Dreams of the exploding Sun

so yesterday i had a dream that i was outside and looked up at the sky to see the most spectacular light show i've ever seen. there were thousands of falling stars spewing into the night air, then the sun rose into view and began to explode. The thought occured that this could be the end of my life, of the world. I watched in awe knowing it was beyond my control. the sun then turned into waves of blue light before it settled into a new kind of energy. it didn't kill us and seemed to signal a new way of being.

Taking immediate action on business matters makes life stress free

well today i learned how to just organize, prioritize and take instant action on what needs to be done. i am beginning to understand the simplicity of facing responsibilities. avoiding problems or perceived unpleasant situations just makes them worse and creates chaos out of nothing. why not not be afraid then diffuse the situation. procrastination kills!

I feel free from my fear.




i wrote another song. it's called your an interesting cat.

Signs of love and my personal passion

Sunday was prevalent for signs of love. I went to sleep feeling complete peace, happiness, and no worries. I dream of analyzing love all night and wake still in peace and contemplation. My mother calls me to tell me that on Thursday she went to church (in her little Quebec town) and had the congregation pray for me. The lady holding the prayer (a profit I am told) said without knowing me that I have a great desire to sing and that the enemy (satan.?) was trying to stop me. My mother piped up and said yes she wants to be a rock star to which the reply was "Yes she can!" and an older gentleman quoted the bible talking about people of righteous beliefs and actions shining in the sky leading the way....something like that.

I thought I ought to give up the negetive feeling that no one is going to help me clean the mess in my apartment and thought if I need it someone will appear to help and I let go of the sad belief. A few hours later a friend called, stopped by for a visit, and spontaniously initiated cleaning duties to which in one hour we got half of the hallway and half of the spare room cleaned out and more organized.

"What's this?" I spontaniously found an old business card folder open to my Universal Music contact which I aquired from my sneaky entrance into the Universal Music Private Party after the Junos when they were in Edmonton. I charmed and danced and no doubt they knew I wasn't invited but treated me like a star anyway, encouraging me to keep in touch and that I may be exactly what they are looking for. Then we all went to the EMI afterparty in the penthouse of the Westin with Hawksley and others and hungout with Simple Plan and my boys from Crowned King and many others. That was a great night! :D

I also found an application for the Songwriters association of Canada.

I wrote a song and recorded it (the lyrics and style). Its called On That Rail.

I did my laundry and dishes finally.

I would say I am making progress.

I also found another band perfect to be in my cartoon world :) and it happens to be the new project of another one of my Canadian idols growing up. I got em all!

The Big Ining

Well this will be my public diary. The rise of Victoria Bourne as an identity, my identity expressed openly as I relate my experience of the world to the world from my singular viewpoint.